Friday, June 20, 2003
o6.2o.o3 [7:33p]
argggg... pesteng buhay. *and so she sits at the farthest corner of the room and cries, singing 'happy birthday to me' * leche. wlang kasing abnormal at pathetic. i hate myself. i can feel mmyself changing, and it scares me. is it healthy to hate one's self? i think not... this friggin sucks. i hate it.. arggggg.... i am the most unspecial person in the world. there is no reason why i should mean anything to anyone whatsoever. i'm wishing i were six feet under. arggg... right now there is no brighter side. no one cares.. fuck them all. lecheng kababuyan ng buhay to. puchakkk... patawad. i am now feeling really really really REALLY bitter and mad and frustrated and sad and every other antonym of the word "happy". damn... how does it feel to hate one's self? not good... shit. i'ma keep blabbing about my day.. that's what blogs are for, right? hah! Ö i hate tears. they suck, they don't feel nice. i hate crying.. i can't breath, tears incessantly flow down my fuccin impudence along with damn sipon. sheesh. i hate myself. grrr... damn damn damn... ahh, shit. sna mamaga ang aking mga mata para masaya at kaawaawa. yehey. why do i hate myself this much? i feel like the only person who ever hates him/herself. is this normal? i think i have issues. hah. my dad i mad at me. fucc it. i' the worst daughter ever created. i can't think of a single answer as to why God made me. i am the most walang kwenta person in the world. do you not think so? even the worst people like saddam are better than me. grrr... i hate hating myself. i hate june 20. i hate ever even being born. no one would notice, nothing would've changed, i suppose. there is havoc in my mind, created also by yours truly. damn. someone told me na...
"a day really isn't complete without seeing a smile from inna"
...or something whatsoever. i wish it were true. dang. ako'y nagpapasalamat sa lahat ng taong pinagcha2gaan ako. salamat. patawad sa lahat.. ...so i guess i can drop dead now! damn. i hate it. i can't stop. shit. but i have to. no one cares, nothing matters, and even i don't care and i do not matter. oh hurrah for the 14 empty years of inna.
->who's me? it is I... who is I?...Ö
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
6/20/2003 07:35:00 PM
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