Sunday, August 20, 2006
I can't breathe unless you do this with me.
Oh God. I swear everything's just falling falling falling. Fuck.
Why am I this angry? This frustrated? Cause I hate being disappointed.
I can't even get the words right. I don't think you understand how much this hurts. Normally when my self esteem goes running I have something to lean on.
I never felt like running away from anything. I've always felt like running to you. Yet sadly, not this time. I feel like leaving cause I have never felt this alone. The one emotion I have never been familiar with, and the one emotion I feared the most.
You really are stronger without me than I am without you.
But what's worse it that having all this anger towards you still makes me think of how much I must be hurting you. WHY. Sometimes I just really wanna think about myself. But more often I wish you'd think about me the way I do about you.
I know this'll pass, i'm just waiting. Waiting. Waiting for.
Ever.
Oh God. I swear everything's just falling falling falling. Fuck.
Why am I this angry? This frustrated? Cause I hate being disappointed.
I can't even get the words right. I don't think you understand how much this hurts. Normally when my self esteem goes running I have something to lean on.
I never felt like running away from anything. I've always felt like running to you. Yet sadly, not this time. I feel like leaving cause I have never felt this alone. The one emotion I have never been familiar with, and the one emotion I feared the most.
You really are stronger without me than I am without you.
But what's worse it that having all this anger towards you still makes me think of how much I must be hurting you. WHY. Sometimes I just really wanna think about myself. But more often I wish you'd think about me the way I do about you.
I know this'll pass, i'm just waiting. Waiting. Waiting for.
Ever.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
8/20/2006 08:18:00 PM
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